I tiptoe
through my past like a robber in the night. I search for a great memory that is
worth bringing with me. I was so caught up in my fantasies I couldn't determine
what was real from what I had hoped for. That was the beginning of my
destruction. No one stopped me. I did not care because when I am so focused not
even the most beautiful words can stop me. I cried. I hurt. I got revenge.
Revenge tastes so sweet until God exposes what you did.
He exposed me. He exposed me.
That was my
chance to change, but instead I went back to my past and tried to ignore the
pain that remained. I failed and the cycle began. It took a couple more times
until my secret nights of tiptoeing began to cease. I had a few more failures
and brought some unexpected things with me. I went creeping through my past so
much that it was barely anything there to take. There was no more tiptoeing
because my present contained those old memories. I thought they would be so
sweet, so kind, but instead they stole from me. I missed out on many opportunities
because I was caught up in my dreams...or dare I say nightmares. But in the
midst of my mess and confusion, God spoke to me. And for the first time, I
decided to listen and obey. I didn't have much hope in what He had spoken to
me, but I had tremendous doubt. Every time I tried to ignore Him, He exposed
the truth in my past. Every time I attempted to run from Him He exposed the
pain. As He exposed, He began to heal.
Expose and heal. Expose and heal.
I began to believe there could be a future outside
of that comfortable pain. So much luggage I had brought. So many tears I had
released. So much pain I had endured, but God kept me. I had searched for great
memories that had continuously left me empty. I did not understand why but God
kept me. I released my fear and doubt, those old fantasies and the luggage from
there to now. I feel empowered. Renewed. Refreshed.
I. Am. Healed.
Because He exposed me.
God's Grace,
Likyla
